Tuesday, December 9, 2008

The confused Indian

I begin with labyrinth a word I have found fascinating since I first heard it in grade VIII from my English teacher explaining John Milton's paradise lost. I still find it interesting because it describes me so wonderfully. The manner in which my brain works, my eternal search for internal wellness, my processes of creativity, the discovery of the various loves of my life... you name it.

I dont think there is anything harder than facing your own demons - and as I pursue my passion of understanding my own self - I am faced time and again with with the mirror that reflects my self sometimes beautiful and sometimes terrifyingly ugly. As a trainer on behavioral change it is my own journey that provides insights into how humans are resistant to change. I believe it is the human reluctance to see that mirror that prevents people from letting go of ageold decaying issues that have long been outdated.

I think the biggest challenge that Indians are faced with today at a very personal, communal, societal and national level is to figure the answer to "who am I"? This confusion is not very different from the labyrinth inside me. It is there in the society, in the manner we negotiate our relationships with each other and the west, in the confusion of the professionalism of the corporate world and also in the manner in which we cope with "terror" and "terror attacks".

In the wake of this catastrophe where everyone is looking for a cause to associate themselves with in order to ensure that the "anger" does not die out, I begin this journey of discovering the labyrinth that being me and being Indian creates in my mind. I firmly believe that this is the first challenge that faces us all.